I admit

I admit

This is me

I'm the worst in expressing my feeling

I'm the worst when it comes to words

Maybe because of the lack of confidence

Maybe because the one that I like is too good for me

I just suppress my feeling 

deep in my heart

I admit

I am a person 

who easily fall in love with someone

I do hate myself for that

Sometimes, even pitying myself for that

Always jump into an unrequited love

I am a Muslimah for goodness sake

Islam has taught its followers to be careful on what you see

Be careful on what you think

Be careful on what you hear

Be careful on what you feel

Me as Muslimah, must follows those rules

But, I admit

It's hard

I'm not a strong person

I'm always trapped

O Allah

Help me

Make me stronger

Avoid me from this feeling

I'm weak without Your help

I do hope that my heart will be stronger and not easily fall in love with someone though

It's hurt

and I feel ashamed

Truly ashamed!!